SoW: Harder Than I Thought

I find it quite funny that you can practically be best friends with a person in some contexts and not be able to stand them in others. It's a position I've found myself in quite often since I've been here, not least of all with my own self, in a sense. It's been a pretty difficult week in that respect; working with people in the proximity that I have been and in the contexts that I have been has really brought a lot more flaws to light that exist in my character than I thought were there. I mean, I know that I'm quite far from perfect, but I thought I was maybe a little closer to it than this... It's really such a humbling thing, which is incredibly difficult, though it's exactly what I asked God to do in me this season of my life. The contrast between this quarter at YWAM and what God is doing in my life is very different from what He did during my DTS. A lot of waiting, a lot of silence, a lot of listening, a lot of biting my tongue when I want to say things. Through it I can already feel God doing something in me, though I can't quite put my finger on, but really I don't need to.

This last week we had a teacher in, by the name of Mary Jean Powers, who taught on the biblical foundation for worship. She did a wonderful job and really incited a lot of passion in all our hearts to get into the Word more. The way she explained what it means that God's name and His word is lifted up above all other things brought a holy fear to the room and made me even more passionate about not elevating anything or anyone but the name(s) and Word of God. Our first of four songs is due at the end of this week and I'm really excited to connect with the worship in heaven and bring it to the earth with this song, by God's grace, and in the future with the other songs I'll write.

Thank you all for lifting me up in prayer and please continue to pray for me: for strength and health, for an open heart, mind, eyes and ears, for humility, and most importantly for passion and drive to pursue God every single day.